Part Seven

A few minutes had passed since the crash happened. Every part of me was screaming with pain, wanting to be released and thrown into nothingness. My whole life was going to end. I closed my eyes, into the so-called nothingness, releived that the person that I was starting to love, was a few feet away from my dieing body...

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I tried to open my eyes. It feels like they've been closed forever. I heard low whispers somewhere, a language I couldn't understand. Where was I? My shoulders hurt. I was lying down on my back, flat out with a low pillow. This wasn't mine, my pillow is puffy and welcoming. I tried to turn to my side when pain raced throughout my body. I didn't move. Wut was happening? Why am I feeling pain all over? I opened my eyes. This ceiling.. I've never seen it before; blue. And then I noticed the smell. I've always hated it ever since I was little; dettol or Clorox or something, urgh. I didn't understand a thing. I was too dizzy to think, and drifted to my deep sleep again...

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People talking, worried. I was irritated. Cant people understand someone's need to SLEEP? I felt so tired like I haven't slept for days. I wana go back to that dream, it felt so nice like it was real. I cant remember it well; someone whispering something nice in my ear, a hand smoothing my hair, a soft kiss on my forehead. I had a few more similar dreams. I smiled to myself. That hurt. Weird. Since when does smiling hurt? I tried to think of wut could possibly be hurting my face like that. But then my thoughts were interrupted..

Baba: dr 9arlaha sboo3 nayma.. mo ma3qoola.. mit2akdeen inha b5air?

Dr: mat5afsh ya 7ag.. ta2seer il 7adis kan gamid 3ala gismaha.. il gism byi7tag kam youm 3alashan yit3afa.. wi deh shee2 6abee3i giddan.. wi 6ab3an 7adritak 3arif innu ilkusoor bti7tag fatra 6aweela 3ashan tilti2im tani..

And then I remembered.. I was in an accident, right? But wut happened? I cant remember.. I opened my eyes: I squinted against the lights. I saw 2 people standing at the door. They didn't notice that I had opened my eyes. I tried to call baba, but it seems that I'd lost my voice.. they kept talking, my hard attempts to call them unnoticed. Wouldn't they even look over? I tried to get up..OUCH. I moaned.. they both came hurrying to my side..

Baba: zaina? Zaina? Baba tismi3eeni??

I looked at him with a pained look; I couldn't hide it nor could I hide my tears. I was in the deepest pain I ever felt. Baba's face looked very troubled, 7araaaam :( I blinked my tears away, I don't want him to worry zyada about me. Akeed 9arla cham youm worrying. There were dark shadows under his puffy eyes, kisar 5a6ri :(

A few nurses came in, kil wa7da t7oos ib 9oub, following the dr's orders. One of them came yammi holding a plastic cup with a straw.

Nurse: drink habibteee.. Ur lips are dry

I tried to lift my head a bit, when I noticed a cast on my neck.

Nurse: no no.. Stay laying down and drink

I puckered my lips and she put the straw, (malout 3a9eer kdd :p) and I drank as if I never tasted water before. I felt my throat open up, as if it's walls were stuck together from the dryness. I breathed in deeply. I looked at baba; his eyebrows were about to switch places min kithir ma he was worried.

Me: ma feeni shay baba la t5af

My voice was so different. It was more of a croak. I must be strong, at least in front of poor baba.

Baba: il7imdillah 3ala salamtich yoba. Wallah 5awafteeni 3alaich

Me: allah ysalmik baba. 5ala9 kani am ok

Baba: 5ala9 yoba ana lazim aroo7 al7een o amirich ib 6al3iti min idawam

Me: ok baba take care

He left. Nurses were still moving around my room. One was checking on the thing stuck in my hand, one was trying to make some space for flowers that were just delivered. Wow.. Those are some flowers here.. I looked at the nurse beside me..

Me: umm nurse? Were there any cards on those flowers?

Nurse: yes habibteee.. We kept them for u.. U have many ppl who love u..!

Me: illi yadri yadri, willi ma yadri ygool mithlich..

I was talking more to myself than to her..

The nurse handed me a pile of cards. I started opening them one by one...

Salamat... 5altich sara

Aha.. Wayid imta3ba nafsich.. Ashkara uboy '3a9ibha... NEXT!!

Ma tshoofeen shar zayoon o allah ygawmich bisalaaamaa yaaa rab !!! We love uuu!!xoxo ;**

This was a huge card signed by my whole high skool class.. It was really cute.. Ya7lailhum ;*

Il7imdillah 3ala salamtich zayoon.. Wallah figadtich oo mayta 5ouf 3alaich.. Yalla goomay tara ma9a5teeha ;*Miss u ;*

Ma3ali.. I looked around for my mobile.. I want to call her.. I looked at the bedside table.. Nothing but a bottle of water and the plastic cup with the straw. There was a landline phone..
I reached out with my good hand, the other one casted, but couldn't reach. I clicked on the red button next to me to get the nurse to help me.. I closed my eyes, I was still so tired.
It was a minute till the door opened.

Me: nurse please can u call someone for me? I can't reach the handset..

Silence...

I opened my eyes.. No one

Haw.. I heard someone come in.. I clicked on the button again.. It was a few minutes til the nurse came in..

Nurse: sorry ms.zainaa.. I was with another patient..

Me: umm.. Can u help me call please? I can't reach the phone..

Nurse: yees yees of course

The nurse came over.. I noticed that the nurse's shoe didn't make any noises.. The person who came in made a quiet thumping when they walked.. Mino ya3ni? That's weird..
I was just giving the nurse ma3ali's number, when the door opened.. I looked and gasped..

Me: ma3aaliiiii !!!

Ma3ali: aaaaah!! Zayoooon !!

She came over, wanting to hug me, then stopped. Looking at me all over..

Ma3ali: @@ umm.. Agdar alimmich? ;'p

Me: hehe wallah ma jarrabt yalla limeeni

She just put her arms around me very lightly. 7aram 5ayfa t3awirni ;'*

Ma3ali: waay zayoon il7imdillah 3ala salamtich.. Wallah mawateeni 5ouf 3alaich!!

My eyes got all teary. I think she's the only person I know who would care so much about me..

Me: allah ysalmich.. Bas amana ma3ali.. Abi a3arif shino illi 9ar bithab6, ma7ad solafli..

Ma3ali: ana 6ab3an 6aya7t il miyana wiyya il nurses illi hnee min kithir ma ayee hehe

(Aaaaww ;'* ba3ad 3umri she came to visit even though ana ma agoom!!)

Ma3ali: so ohma illi galoli isalfa.. After u.. did ur show bishari3 :p.. Hehe badda3tay 9ara7a, wut were u doing bithab6? Allah sitar wallah ya zayoon.. Anyways, after u crashed, u were stuck fa ma7ad gadir i6al3ich min ur car :s fa kan lazim yan6iroon il ma6afi to cut through il 7adeed.. As u know hathail i6awloon shkithir.. Oo took them time zyada to work on the cutting.. Fa 3alama 5alli9aw intay kan 9ayirlich mudda unconcious.. Wil is3af lail7een mo wa9leen. O fee wa7id kan wagif 3ind ur car the whole time, 3a9ab inna 6awilaw.. So he lifted u bkaifa, 7a66ich in his car oo he drove off!!

I was stunned. Wth!! Ubbay that is EMBARRASSING!!! Thank God I was unconcious!! ;'$ But...

Me: umm.. Ma3ali? Mino ohwa? Ya3ni did u see him or something?

Ma3ali: ana la ma shifta.. Bas il nurses kilhum shafoh.. He's been visiting everyday chinna to check on u.. Wil nurses 7adhum mistanseen 3alaih hehe

Me: 7ilfay..

I pressed the red button once more. Shako ma ygooloonli?! Ma3ali was giving me the "shfeeha hathi" look.. The same nurse illi misa3 came in..

Nurse: yes ms.zaina?

Me: umm I want to ask u something..

Nurse: yes? (With the same look on ma3ali's face.. lol)

Me: umm.. Was there anyone coming to see me everyday?

Nurse: yes! Ms.ma3ali came a lot.. And this gentleman that brought u here.. U can see his flowers all around u, and the cards I gave u!!

I looked around.. There were flowers everywhere within my sight. All kinds, all colors. I looked at the cards that I didn't look through. They all had similar handwriting, the handwriting that was the last thing I had my eyes on before I went unconsious on that day.. They were so many, as to the few days I've been here, 10 or 15.. all without any signature.. No name no initials no nothing.. Just the get well soon type of thing..

Me: umm.. Inzain when was the last time he came here?

6ab3an ma3ali thay3a bi6osha o ma tadri wut was going through my mind

Nurse: he's here ms.zaina, talking to dr.kamal

I closed my eyes, realizing my dreams weren't dreams after all..

Me: nurse? Bring him to me.

Nurse: ok ms.zaina (walking out..)

I took a deep breath, failingly attempting to calm my heart that was skipping more beats than any heart could possibly endure.. <3

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3ad al7een baskom 7anna 3ad oo give me a break.. ti3abt :$