Heeyyy my readers <3
i missed u all so much, and thank you Roman6i8 for pointing out that its been 2 months since the last post ;s
tara wallah i've been planning to write :$ and i did, bas shwayya :$
SO, am publishing this 3ashan itgazroon feeh till i write some more :p
hope u like ;)
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I felt the pinch of the needle go through my skin, blood spurting everywhere with my high pressure. It was painful. My back arched as I bit into my lip trying to muffle my cry, and a few seconds later, I was unconcious, my body as still as a corpse waiting to be coffined...
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YUSIF
I was on the phone with the love of my life. No, the REAL love of my life; love that I could not live without, love that I would proudly live with, love that I can have forever. Unlike wut I have in my life now...
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I can't live with the thought inha za3lana.. I dialed her number- which I had memorized even though I never called before- and waited for the tone...
Zaina : alo
Me: haila ya rumanna.. Il7ilwa za3lana!!
Zaina: hehehe.. 5ala9 5ala9 mo za3lana!!
The sound of her laugh gives me a feeling that I can fly...
Me: offf lahadaraja 9outi mo 7ilo?
Zaina: haha la bil 3aks wallah.. Very musical
Me: eeeeh yalla ma3alaih.. Aroo7 a'3anni 7ag nas thaneen 3ayal!!
Ouch.. Why did I say that? WRONG!!!
Zaina: la wallah?!?!
Yusif: hahaha gotcha!! T'3areen zayoon?
I must know her feelings gabil ay shay thani...this is a matter of tearing down relationships, while building others...
She was quiet, blushing I suppose..
Zaina: ha? :$
Me: ha intay! ;p shfeech tanna7tay ;p
Zaina: hehe la ma tanna7t :$
Bedoor: Yasoof!! Wainik!!
Yusif: umm.. Zaina? Akalmich ba3ad shway
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It was a mistake that I obey my parents in such a thing. Marrying a girl for the sake of having a better business with her parents is not how life should be! Ana illi tidabast feeha, even though ma bila3t'ha killish when I first saw her. She wasn't bad looking, bil 3aks. She's tall, with a slender body, and long blond hair. She also decsended from a well known family that have been friends with mine for a very long time. She had a degree in business, making her number 1 at their firm. She was simply the "perfect" match for me, in my parent's opinion. Not for me.
For some reason, 3umri ma irta7t laha. There was always this look in her eyes that never let me at ease. Yes, we have been living as husband and wife for the past two years, but I never felt any affection towards her. And I never did anything out of feelings, I just do it so she wouldn't go babbling to her parents about how ana "mga9ir ib 7goog'ha izawjiya". I could spare the embarrassment. It isn't like she wanted much a9lan, not that I saw her often anyway. She was always at the firm, with her friends, or away on business trips. So whenever she asked for anything, I just did it. Mali 5ilg 7anna o 3awar ras.
Me: shtabeen bedoor?
Bedoor: shda3wa shda3wa... Yalla its our together-time. Ta3al il '3urfa na6ritik..
Yusif: mo fathi al7een
Bedoor: shino moo fathi ?! Fathi nafsik 3yooni..
Yusif: bedoor mali 5ilg roo7ay 3anni
Bedoor: well its MY time. Oo when I say its my time, u get ur ass off that chair and come over right here!!!
Yusif: ti7achay 3adil
Bedoor: at7acha nafs ma abi
Yusif: bedoor kiffay ishar a7sanlich
Bedoor: and if I don't? Shbitsawi balla?
Yusif: intay ma yinfa3 wiyach i6eeb
Bedoor: waay waay yumma 5ift
Yusif: intay..
My bb pinged a few times cutting my sentence.. I picked it up and my face turned paler than ever..
14.3.10
21.1.10
Part Twelve
My readers i missed you ;**
adri inni ma9a5t'ha oo 5alaitkom tan6iroon WAYID :$
yalla thats my exam treat for you, if u got good grades hehe ;p
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And then I heard a voice on his end of the phone. Feminine. La2 this can't be happening..
Voice: Yasoof!! Wainik!!
Yusif: umm.. Zaina? Akalmich ba3ad shway
And he hung up
WTF!!!!
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I looked at the screen with disbelief. Wut was THAT? Ay shay 9a7? He has a girl?? And at 2, it must be his wife.. With all the tidilli3 and mushy stuff.. "Yasoof" .. urgh
My anger was building as I thought more about it. Ya3ni shino, ana tagzoora? All the things he said to me, bas 7achi? My eyes started to gather tears, the tears that he wanted to stop a few hours ago.. But how could he? Ana.. ANA y9eer feeni chithee?! And I started crying...
Tears of betrayal..
Tears of failure..
Tears of shock..
Tears of disbelief..
Tears that turned into a salty river on my bruised cheeks, burning their way down and followed by more..
I was shaking with fury. I wanted to break out of my casts, to go break his own neck for doing this to me. No wonder this all seemed too unreal; it was just a game. None of his feelings were true, none of the things he promised were out of heart, none of the looks in his eyes was love. I was stunned at how far I was decieved. I actually believed that he loved me, that he wanted me, that he cared.
I needed to cry this out, cry my grief, my new born love. And I decided that I didn't want to see his face anymore. I'll forget him, yes. I managed to live without one of the most important people in my life, and I will be able to live without my deciever, the liar.
My heart was pounding, hurting my ribs. My head was going to explode, I wished I could vanish into nothingness. I was in too much pain, and I can't take anymore. I reached out to press the button, and called the nurse.
As the nurse entered, my tears were still falling heavily, a waterfall..
Nurse (eyes open wide) : wuts wrong habibtee!! Is something hurting?!
Me (between my sobs) : yes.. yes... please nurse.. please.. morphine.. please..
Her face held too much of an expression. She was shocked, no, she was HORRIFIED as I was begging her to give that shot of morphine. She seemed disoriented like she was going to have a nervous breakdown of her own. She leaned against the wall, slowly retreating from the room, turning into a sprint as she got to the door.
I began wailing. Why? WHY? I don't want to live. I had enuf pain in my life 5ala9 mabi I can't take this anymore. I snatched the new stupid blackberry he got me..
Me (typing) : YA 7AQEER.. YA A7QAR INSAN MAR 3ALAY IB 7AYATY..
I couldn't see through my tears, but I kept on writing, saying the words aloud as I typed them
Me (typing still): MABI ASHOOF RIG3AT WAYHIK AGAIN YA ...
I stopped to give it a thought.. Ya 5ayin? I can't really say that. He never really confessed his love. Nor did he ever say he was committed or anything. I decided on calling him 7mar, since that was the perfect word. Very expressive, in my point of view.
I typed the word and pressed the enter key. I watched the "D" waiting yet again for it to turn into an "R". I started to hate this technology ib sibbita, allah la ywafga. I waited and waited, then I realized he'd be "too busy" right now for any msg from anyone, ha!
I gazed into space for a few seconds, the fire glazing inside me.. I gave the bb a dark look, and used all the energy I could gather and threw it into the opposite wall, pieces flying all over the room. As soon as the phone shattered, several nurses rushed into the room.
Nurse: its ok habibtee everything will be okay don't worry.. Relax relax!!
I was still crying loudly, it reminded me of the way I cried when I was a kid..
Nurse: its okaaay.. We will now call mr.yusif...
And that did it.
I was screaming at the top of my lungs. I thrashed and pushed and kicked and did everything the casts would let me do.
"MA ABEEEEEEEH!!! FIHAMTAY?! MA ABI ASHOOOFAAAA!!!!"
I wasn't in my right mind. I had lost it. Saying that she'll call him for me triggered me into losing it. And all of a sudden all the nurses where holding me everywhere. I couldn't move anything except my head, side to side, still screaming.
I felt the pinch of the needle go through my skin, blood spurting everywhere with my high pressure. And a few seconds later, I was unconcious, my body as still as a corpse waiting to be buried...
adri inni ma9a5t'ha oo 5alaitkom tan6iroon WAYID :$
yalla thats my exam treat for you, if u got good grades hehe ;p
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And then I heard a voice on his end of the phone. Feminine. La2 this can't be happening..
Voice: Yasoof!! Wainik!!
Yusif: umm.. Zaina? Akalmich ba3ad shway
And he hung up
WTF!!!!
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I looked at the screen with disbelief. Wut was THAT? Ay shay 9a7? He has a girl?? And at 2, it must be his wife.. With all the tidilli3 and mushy stuff.. "Yasoof" .. urgh
My anger was building as I thought more about it. Ya3ni shino, ana tagzoora? All the things he said to me, bas 7achi? My eyes started to gather tears, the tears that he wanted to stop a few hours ago.. But how could he? Ana.. ANA y9eer feeni chithee?! And I started crying...
Tears of betrayal..
Tears of failure..
Tears of shock..
Tears of disbelief..
Tears that turned into a salty river on my bruised cheeks, burning their way down and followed by more..
I was shaking with fury. I wanted to break out of my casts, to go break his own neck for doing this to me. No wonder this all seemed too unreal; it was just a game. None of his feelings were true, none of the things he promised were out of heart, none of the looks in his eyes was love. I was stunned at how far I was decieved. I actually believed that he loved me, that he wanted me, that he cared.
I needed to cry this out, cry my grief, my new born love. And I decided that I didn't want to see his face anymore. I'll forget him, yes. I managed to live without one of the most important people in my life, and I will be able to live without my deciever, the liar.
My heart was pounding, hurting my ribs. My head was going to explode, I wished I could vanish into nothingness. I was in too much pain, and I can't take anymore. I reached out to press the button, and called the nurse.
As the nurse entered, my tears were still falling heavily, a waterfall..
Nurse (eyes open wide) : wuts wrong habibtee!! Is something hurting?!
Me (between my sobs) : yes.. yes... please nurse.. please.. morphine.. please..
Her face held too much of an expression. She was shocked, no, she was HORRIFIED as I was begging her to give that shot of morphine. She seemed disoriented like she was going to have a nervous breakdown of her own. She leaned against the wall, slowly retreating from the room, turning into a sprint as she got to the door.
I began wailing. Why? WHY? I don't want to live. I had enuf pain in my life 5ala9 mabi I can't take this anymore. I snatched the new stupid blackberry he got me..
Me (typing) : YA 7AQEER.. YA A7QAR INSAN MAR 3ALAY IB 7AYATY..
I couldn't see through my tears, but I kept on writing, saying the words aloud as I typed them
Me (typing still): MABI ASHOOF RIG3AT WAYHIK AGAIN YA ...
I stopped to give it a thought.. Ya 5ayin? I can't really say that. He never really confessed his love. Nor did he ever say he was committed or anything. I decided on calling him 7mar, since that was the perfect word. Very expressive, in my point of view.
I typed the word and pressed the enter key. I watched the "D" waiting yet again for it to turn into an "R". I started to hate this technology ib sibbita, allah la ywafga. I waited and waited, then I realized he'd be "too busy" right now for any msg from anyone, ha!
I gazed into space for a few seconds, the fire glazing inside me.. I gave the bb a dark look, and used all the energy I could gather and threw it into the opposite wall, pieces flying all over the room. As soon as the phone shattered, several nurses rushed into the room.
Nurse: its ok habibtee everything will be okay don't worry.. Relax relax!!
I was still crying loudly, it reminded me of the way I cried when I was a kid..
Nurse: its okaaay.. We will now call mr.yusif...
And that did it.
I was screaming at the top of my lungs. I thrashed and pushed and kicked and did everything the casts would let me do.
"MA ABEEEEEEEH!!! FIHAMTAY?! MA ABI ASHOOOFAAAA!!!!"
I wasn't in my right mind. I had lost it. Saying that she'll call him for me triggered me into losing it. And all of a sudden all the nurses where holding me everywhere. I couldn't move anything except my head, side to side, still screaming.
I felt the pinch of the needle go through my skin, blood spurting everywhere with my high pressure. And a few seconds later, I was unconcious, my body as still as a corpse waiting to be buried...
1.12.09
3eedkom imbarak ;*
hey there :D
adri 7addi mit2a5ra.. bas 3eedkom imbarak oo 3asa rabbi yitqabbal minkom ;*
oo inshallah there will be a new post soon ;)
oo thank u illi yis2iloon 3anni :$ love u all ;*
til next post.. !! <3
adri 7addi mit2a5ra.. bas 3eedkom imbarak oo 3asa rabbi yitqabbal minkom ;*
oo inshallah there will be a new post soon ;)
oo thank u illi yis2iloon 3anni :$ love u all ;*
til next post.. !! <3
15.11.09
Part Eleven
Yusif: yalla I gotta go al7een.. Tabeen ayeeblich shay ma3ay bachir?
Me: no thank u.. Bas la tit2a5ar
Yusif: inshallah
Just as he got up to leave, we both heard the sound of heels that were in my room an hour ago walking AWAY, just now from behind the door...
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I couldn't believe it. She was actually standing there the whole time?! How sick is that!! Waaay la2 ;s ya3ni misa3 yusif anqathni oo 6alla3ni min isalfa, but wut now that she's heard all of wut we've said? Akeed she'd be running now to tell uboy..
On the other hand, yusif was still calm
Yusif: don't worry
Me: shloun? Yusif she was listening to the whole thing!!
Yusif: oo i7na ma gilna shay '3ala6
Me: yusif.. Mo min 9ijjik 9a7? This whole situation is '3ala6!!
Yusif: zaina, plz don't panic. Wutever happens, am with u.
This was nice to hear, but not enuf to save me from wuts coming. I can't think of wut baba's reaction when he hears. La o mo bas chithe, he'll hear 5alti sara's version of the story with all her spices added. I couldn't stop my tears from crawling out of my eyes. He held my hand in both of his..
Yusif: don't u trust me?
Me: imbala
Yusif: then stop those diamonds from falling.. 3ashani
He held up his hand to my face, and wiped away my tears. His touch, even though quick, gave me warmth and a feeling that am safe as long as am with him.
Yusif: I have to leave now..
He reached for his pocket, and got out a blackberry.
Yusif: my number is saved. Call or msg me whenever u need me
I took the bb..
Me: this isn't mine..
Yusif: urs was shattered at the accident.. Got u one bidala
Me: thank u yusif.. For everything..
Yusif: don't mention it.. Yalla take care
Me: u too..
And he left. I kept looking at the empty space. HIS space. He has made himself a big space in my life in so little time. Who is this guy?
I was alone now, watching 5aloodi and faroo7a playing together. I miss them so much, bas bali 7adda mash'3ool ib wut happened. Wut happens next? The tragic ending of a sorrowful life that was just starting to find a way out? I was too tired to worry and think about the options, none of them positive. I closed my eyes, and dosed off into sleep full of nightmares as much as if I were awake..
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I opened my eyes to an empty room. The clock was pointing at 2.. Is it the middle of the nite? I reached for the new bb.. Should I call or bbm or sms? I decided on the bbm 3ashan ma aga3da min inoum if he was asleep..
Strangely, my nickname was "Gumar Hadinya"
Okaaayy.. Inshallah ma yfashilni akthar :$
He was my only contact..
Gumar Hadinya:
>Yusif?
I waited.. No reply.. 5azzait the "D" beside my msg waiting for it to turn into an "R" bas it didn't.. Well it was 2 in the morning.. He must be asleep.. I put down my bb.. And looked at the ceiling.. I can't even remember how my life used to be before I knew him..
PING
Waaay I love this sound :$
I picked the bb and opened my new msg..
Yusif:
>Hala bil gumar ;*
Gumar Hadinya:
>Hehe ahlan ;$ !!
Yusif:
>Shimga3dich hal 7azza??
Gumar Hadinya:
>Kint nayma min lemma inta mishait.. Shiba3t noum!! The question is shimga3dik inta?!
Yusif:
>Wallah mako ga3id ashti'3il
Gumar Hadinya:
>Shi'3il at 2??
Yusif:
>Yep! 3adi ishi'3il yamshi ib kil wagt ;p
Gumar Hadinya:
>Umhmm oo laish 6awalt 3alama raddait 3alay?
Yusif:
>Lana I was on the phone
Gumar Hadinya:
>With??
Yusif:
>My secretary from work
Gumar Hadinya:
>Aha..
Yusif:
>Shfeech?
Gumar Hadinya:
>Ma feeni shay
Yusif:
>Tara my secretary is a guy btw
Gumar Hadinya:
>Umhm ok
Yusif:
>Chinni ashoof relief dawning? ;p
Gumar Hadinya:
>Haha.. Not funny
Yusif:
>Mmm.. How are u feeling?
Gumar Hadinya:
>Better
Yusif:
>Inshallah ma t6angireen
Gumar Hadinya:
>Ma 6angart..
He was quiet then.. I kept looking at the screen.. Nothing..
Ya3ni 9ij!! Yit3ammad yaqhirni :s iffff
And then the bb turned into another screen:
Yusif
Calling
I answered
Me: alo
Yusif: haila ya rumanna.. Il7ilwa za3lana!!
That made me laugh, he had the worst sense of rhythm ever!!
Me: hehehe.. 5ala9 5ala9 mo za3lana!!
Yusif: offf lahadaraja 9outi mo 7ilo?
Me: haha la bil 3aks wallah.. Very musical
Yusif: eeeeh yalla ma3alaih.. Aroo7 a'3anni 7ag nas thaneen 3ayal!!
Me: la wallah?!?!
Yusif: hahaha gotcha!! T'3areen zayoon?
That was a lot for one sentence.. The concept inni a'3ar plus awal marra ynadeeni "zayoon" at the same time!! Aaah magdar <3 :$
Me: ha? :$
Yusif: ha intay! ;p shfeech tanna7tay ;p
Me: hehe la ma tanna7t :$ (thank god this is happening on phone, mo face to face :$)
And then I heard a voice on his end of the phone. Feminine. La2 this can't be happening..
Voice: Yasoof!! Wainik!!
Yusif: umm.. Zaina? Akalmich ba3ad shway
And he hung up
WTF!!!!
Me: no thank u.. Bas la tit2a5ar
Yusif: inshallah
Just as he got up to leave, we both heard the sound of heels that were in my room an hour ago walking AWAY, just now from behind the door...
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I couldn't believe it. She was actually standing there the whole time?! How sick is that!! Waaay la2 ;s ya3ni misa3 yusif anqathni oo 6alla3ni min isalfa, but wut now that she's heard all of wut we've said? Akeed she'd be running now to tell uboy..
On the other hand, yusif was still calm
Yusif: don't worry
Me: shloun? Yusif she was listening to the whole thing!!
Yusif: oo i7na ma gilna shay '3ala6
Me: yusif.. Mo min 9ijjik 9a7? This whole situation is '3ala6!!
Yusif: zaina, plz don't panic. Wutever happens, am with u.
This was nice to hear, but not enuf to save me from wuts coming. I can't think of wut baba's reaction when he hears. La o mo bas chithe, he'll hear 5alti sara's version of the story with all her spices added. I couldn't stop my tears from crawling out of my eyes. He held my hand in both of his..
Yusif: don't u trust me?
Me: imbala
Yusif: then stop those diamonds from falling.. 3ashani
He held up his hand to my face, and wiped away my tears. His touch, even though quick, gave me warmth and a feeling that am safe as long as am with him.
Yusif: I have to leave now..
He reached for his pocket, and got out a blackberry.
Yusif: my number is saved. Call or msg me whenever u need me
I took the bb..
Me: this isn't mine..
Yusif: urs was shattered at the accident.. Got u one bidala
Me: thank u yusif.. For everything..
Yusif: don't mention it.. Yalla take care
Me: u too..
And he left. I kept looking at the empty space. HIS space. He has made himself a big space in my life in so little time. Who is this guy?
I was alone now, watching 5aloodi and faroo7a playing together. I miss them so much, bas bali 7adda mash'3ool ib wut happened. Wut happens next? The tragic ending of a sorrowful life that was just starting to find a way out? I was too tired to worry and think about the options, none of them positive. I closed my eyes, and dosed off into sleep full of nightmares as much as if I were awake..
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I opened my eyes to an empty room. The clock was pointing at 2.. Is it the middle of the nite? I reached for the new bb.. Should I call or bbm or sms? I decided on the bbm 3ashan ma aga3da min inoum if he was asleep..
Strangely, my nickname was "Gumar Hadinya"
Okaaayy.. Inshallah ma yfashilni akthar :$
He was my only contact..
Gumar Hadinya:
>Yusif?
I waited.. No reply.. 5azzait the "D" beside my msg waiting for it to turn into an "R" bas it didn't.. Well it was 2 in the morning.. He must be asleep.. I put down my bb.. And looked at the ceiling.. I can't even remember how my life used to be before I knew him..
PING
Waaay I love this sound :$
I picked the bb and opened my new msg..
Yusif:
>Hala bil gumar ;*
Gumar Hadinya:
>Hehe ahlan ;$ !!
Yusif:
>Shimga3dich hal 7azza??
Gumar Hadinya:
>Kint nayma min lemma inta mishait.. Shiba3t noum!! The question is shimga3dik inta?!
Yusif:
>Wallah mako ga3id ashti'3il
Gumar Hadinya:
>Shi'3il at 2??
Yusif:
>Yep! 3adi ishi'3il yamshi ib kil wagt ;p
Gumar Hadinya:
>Umhmm oo laish 6awalt 3alama raddait 3alay?
Yusif:
>Lana I was on the phone
Gumar Hadinya:
>With??
Yusif:
>My secretary from work
Gumar Hadinya:
>Aha..
Yusif:
>Shfeech?
Gumar Hadinya:
>Ma feeni shay
Yusif:
>Tara my secretary is a guy btw
Gumar Hadinya:
>Umhm ok
Yusif:
>Chinni ashoof relief dawning? ;p
Gumar Hadinya:
>Haha.. Not funny
Yusif:
>Mmm.. How are u feeling?
Gumar Hadinya:
>Better
Yusif:
>Inshallah ma t6angireen
Gumar Hadinya:
>Ma 6angart..
He was quiet then.. I kept looking at the screen.. Nothing..
Ya3ni 9ij!! Yit3ammad yaqhirni :s iffff
And then the bb turned into another screen:
Yusif
Calling
I answered
Me: alo
Yusif: haila ya rumanna.. Il7ilwa za3lana!!
That made me laugh, he had the worst sense of rhythm ever!!
Me: hehehe.. 5ala9 5ala9 mo za3lana!!
Yusif: offf lahadaraja 9outi mo 7ilo?
Me: haha la bil 3aks wallah.. Very musical
Yusif: eeeeh yalla ma3alaih.. Aroo7 a'3anni 7ag nas thaneen 3ayal!!
Me: la wallah?!?!
Yusif: hahaha gotcha!! T'3areen zayoon?
That was a lot for one sentence.. The concept inni a'3ar plus awal marra ynadeeni "zayoon" at the same time!! Aaah magdar <3 :$
Me: ha? :$
Yusif: ha intay! ;p shfeech tanna7tay ;p
Me: hehe la ma tanna7t :$ (thank god this is happening on phone, mo face to face :$)
And then I heard a voice on his end of the phone. Feminine. La2 this can't be happening..
Voice: Yasoof!! Wainik!!
Yusif: umm.. Zaina? Akalmich ba3ad shway
And he hung up
WTF!!!!
20.10.09
Part Ten
The door opened.. I guessed it was one of the stupid nurses yaya itchayik 3alay.. But i9adma was when I heard 9out the echo of high heels.. I froze in place (not that I could move much, but u get the point!!) And then she appeared in front of me.. The woman who had turned my life into a living hell:
5alti sara..
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My mind was rushing. Shino agool bithab6? Sharagi3? :s I hadn't expected this killish.. Hal zaga visiting me? Bas shasawi al7een? Yusif was sitting calmly beside me. I don't know if he'd recognized her..
5alti sara: salam
Me: 3alaikom isalam, hala 5alti
I was trying to keep out the freaking out part from my voice..
5alti sara: ashoof 3indich thyoof..?
She looking pointedly at yusif.. With a hint of a cruel smile on her ugly lips.. Triumph..
Me: umm ee..
I was really stuck.. Shagool? A friend min iljam3a? No, a friend min il jam3a wouldn't come alone, he'd come wiyya a group or something.. Ubbay shagoool!!! 5ala9 I was panicking oo 9ij 9ij madri shagool ;'/But suddenly, out of no where, yusif stood up..
Yusif: ma3ach yusif il******... A5i9a2i jira7a o tajmeel..
I was looking at him with wide eyes.. Where the HELL did he get that from?! Ubbay sh'hal targee3a?! Shako shakooo!!
5alti sara: ahaa 7ayak allah..
Yusif: allah y7ayeech.. bas kint atnaqash wiyya il i5t zaina 3an i7tmal inna ykoon fee da3i 7ag jira7at tajmeel ba9ee6a 7ag 5ashimha..
Aham shay.. So now I need a nose job? Ee ba3ad yusif ba3ad.. 5arrif zyada.. !!
5alti sara: aha..*murmurring* 3ishtaw..( She turned to the door) Marry... MARRYYY!!!
Marry, the new maid I guess, came in with 5aloodi and faroo7a each in a hand..
Me: oh!! 5alood!! Faroo7a!!
I was so happy to see them. I've been wanting to ask baba for ages, but I know inna he visits either going to work or back from work. Ma kint abi athagil 3alaih..
They both came closer, both with their brows tight together, as if they weren't sure if it was really me. I held out my good hand to them, the same side where yusif was. He picked up faroo7a and brought her closer to me..
Faroo7a: noona?
Me: 7ayaaaaaty intay!! Shlounich 7abeebty?
Faroo7a: noona shino feech?
Me: ma feeni shay 7abeebty.. Bas shway t3awart
Faroo7a: i3awiw?
Me: shwaya!!
Her face was heart-breaking. She looked so sad 7araaaam :( Then I noticed her clothes. She was as clean as a dirt bag. Her hair was all dirty and pointing in all sorts of places. Ubbay shino hatha? :s
Faroo7a: noona mita tyeen bait?
Me: soon baby soon..
Wallah itha intaw 3ala hal 7ala, am breaking those casts and coming for u.. Ma a9addig how a mother could neglect her own kids like that.. Some women just don't deserve to be mothers..
5alti sara: sim3eeni.. Ba5ali il 5adama wil yahal 3indich oo baroo7 isoog.. Ubooch ya5ith'hum ba3dain..
And she walked out.
That was the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to me. Shagool 7ag yusif? I couldn't look at him. 9a7 ana mali shi'3il feeha, bas still, she's family ya3ni.
Yusif: zaina? Tabeen amshi?
Me: no! plz stay?
Yusif: madri chinnich mithayga..
Me: no no plz don't go
He held my hand. This is the first time he holds my hand while am concious. My face turned red. I pulled away slowly.. I tried to change the subject 3ashan la afashil 3umri akthar..
Me: that was a good targee3a.. Min wain yibt'ha? ;p
Yusif: ay targee3a?
Me: the 6abeeb tajmeel thing
He lifted a brow.
Yusif: u think that was a lie?
Me: ha?
Yusif: hehe.. Ana 9ij a5i9a2i jira7a o tajmeel
Me: chathab
Yusif: hehehe!! Laish chathab!!
He started laughing uncontrollably. 7assait nafsi '3ala6..
Me: wuuut why are u laughing
Yusif: tha7akteeni.. "Chathab" hehe
Me: seriously yusif.. U're a dr?
Yusif: yep
Me: but u don't look like one
Yusif: laish, do dr's have a specific look?
Me: ee dr's can't look cool
Yusif: oooo ur calling me cool ha? ;)
Omg he's teasing. Ana habla ba3ad. I should think more before blurting out everything i think of!
Me: I mean.. U don't even wear glasses!
Yusif: even though hatha mala shi'3il ib being a dr, bas wela tiz3ileen, bachir I'll put on my glasses instead of my 3adasat
Me: oh!! So u do wear glasses!!
Yusif: ee
Me: hmm.. Yeah ok 3ayal, maybe I'll believe ur a dr
Yusif: hehe.. Ayeeblich shahadti 3ashan it9adgeen? ;p
Me: allaaah wanasa!! Ee abi ashoof :p
Yusif: hehe 5ala9 bachir inshallah ayeebha lich
Me: ok :D .... hmm.. and i need a nose job huh? :(
Yusif: haha.. no THAT part was a lie.. u've got the cutest nose ever.. won't let anyone touch it ;p Oo yalla inshallah intay ba3ad mo bageelich shay wityeebeen ishahada
Me: ay shahada wana msaddi7a hnee ;s lazim awagif dirasa til I can stand on my feet again at least..
Yusif: says who?
Me: says me! Shloun ra7 adawim?
Yusif: la t5afeen.. Mo lazim itdawmeen
Me: yusif? Laykoon msawi more stuff min waray?
Yusif: mo min warach.. Kani ga3id agoolich.. Ri7t kallamt ur counsler and dean bil jam3a.. They'll let u continue home-study the rest of the semester..
I was stunned. Doesn't this guy have any limits to wut he can do for me? Qanoon iljam3a wouldn't let anyone do this; u either attend ur classes or stop the semester all together.
Yusif: helloooo
Me: huh
Yusif: ga3id akalmich
Me: yusif laish itsawi chithe
I was on the verge of tears. 5nigatni il3abra oo 3yooni '3origat.. Ubbay how will I ever return his favors? No one on earth has ever cared for me this much.. ;/
Yusif: laish za3lana? I thought this would make u happy, that dirastich mara7 tit2a5ar..
Me: well yes, hell I am happy!! Bas laish chithe? Why are u doing this for me?! Yusif this is just too much!!
He was quiet, looking me in the eyes. For a moment I thought he might slap me; and I deserved it. But he just sighed, and leaned back in his chair. I was waiting for some kind of reply, anything at all. But he remained silent. I started to feel guilty. I can't even imagine wut kind of process he had to go through 3ashan yaqni3 our dean to treat me as a special case. Ifff ubbay why did I do this. Wiyya wayhi ana 7a99illi a7ad ysaweeli chithee 3ashan at7al6am? He was a miracle in my life. I closed my eyes. I made him upset. And I have to make it up to him. But how? Say sorry? That would just be '3ala6.
I opened my eyes. His head was down, looking at his hands fumbling with his misba7. My attention was shifted momentarily at how royal it looked. Bas killish mo wagta.. Wayha kan yaksir il5a6ir ;/ He looked both mad and sad at the same time. Like he wanted to express his anger but couldn't..
Me: yusif?
Yusif: hmm?
Me: za3lan 3alay?
Yusif: la2, why would I?
Me: u look sad..
Yusif: not sad.. Am just thinking
Me: am sorry yusif..
Yusif: wut about?
I thought it better not to mention it since he really isn't mad at me. I searched his face, for something that would show it. But all I could see was care. I loved his face: not beautiful with the shallow thought of beauty these days, but masculine and manly.. He smiled. And I couldn't help but smile back at this angelic face..
Me: nevermind..
Yusif: so.. Mita tabeen I bring ur books?
Me: mmm I think my friend ma3ali would be able to do that..
Yusif: even if ur books are in my car?
Me: huh? Shako shyabhum 3indik?
Yusif: at the accident.. 6arrasht nas to clean up ur car 3ashan ma tinbag ur stuff..
Omg.. I think kan fe ashya2 itfashil I had bought the day before!! As I was trying to remember
wut stupid items were with me in the car during the accident...
Yusif: don't worry, I didn't go through ur stuff..
Me: umm.. Yeah ok.. (Shit he noticed the bags!!)
Yusif: yalla I gotta go al7een.. Tabeen ayeeblich shay ma3ay bachir?
Me: no thank u.. Bas la tit2a5ar
Yusif: inshallah
Just as he got up to leave, we both heard the sound of heels that were in my room an hour ago walking AWAY, just now from behind the door...
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5alti sara..
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My mind was rushing. Shino agool bithab6? Sharagi3? :s I hadn't expected this killish.. Hal zaga visiting me? Bas shasawi al7een? Yusif was sitting calmly beside me. I don't know if he'd recognized her..
5alti sara: salam
Me: 3alaikom isalam, hala 5alti
I was trying to keep out the freaking out part from my voice..
5alti sara: ashoof 3indich thyoof..?
She looking pointedly at yusif.. With a hint of a cruel smile on her ugly lips.. Triumph..
Me: umm ee..
I was really stuck.. Shagool? A friend min iljam3a? No, a friend min il jam3a wouldn't come alone, he'd come wiyya a group or something.. Ubbay shagoool!!! 5ala9 I was panicking oo 9ij 9ij madri shagool ;'/But suddenly, out of no where, yusif stood up..
Yusif: ma3ach yusif il******... A5i9a2i jira7a o tajmeel..
I was looking at him with wide eyes.. Where the HELL did he get that from?! Ubbay sh'hal targee3a?! Shako shakooo!!
5alti sara: ahaa 7ayak allah..
Yusif: allah y7ayeech.. bas kint atnaqash wiyya il i5t zaina 3an i7tmal inna ykoon fee da3i 7ag jira7at tajmeel ba9ee6a 7ag 5ashimha..
Aham shay.. So now I need a nose job? Ee ba3ad yusif ba3ad.. 5arrif zyada.. !!
5alti sara: aha..*murmurring* 3ishtaw..( She turned to the door) Marry... MARRYYY!!!
Marry, the new maid I guess, came in with 5aloodi and faroo7a each in a hand..
Me: oh!! 5alood!! Faroo7a!!
I was so happy to see them. I've been wanting to ask baba for ages, but I know inna he visits either going to work or back from work. Ma kint abi athagil 3alaih..
They both came closer, both with their brows tight together, as if they weren't sure if it was really me. I held out my good hand to them, the same side where yusif was. He picked up faroo7a and brought her closer to me..
Faroo7a: noona?
Me: 7ayaaaaaty intay!! Shlounich 7abeebty?
Faroo7a: noona shino feech?
Me: ma feeni shay 7abeebty.. Bas shway t3awart
Faroo7a: i3awiw?
Me: shwaya!!
Her face was heart-breaking. She looked so sad 7araaaam :( Then I noticed her clothes. She was as clean as a dirt bag. Her hair was all dirty and pointing in all sorts of places. Ubbay shino hatha? :s
Faroo7a: noona mita tyeen bait?
Me: soon baby soon..
Wallah itha intaw 3ala hal 7ala, am breaking those casts and coming for u.. Ma a9addig how a mother could neglect her own kids like that.. Some women just don't deserve to be mothers..
5alti sara: sim3eeni.. Ba5ali il 5adama wil yahal 3indich oo baroo7 isoog.. Ubooch ya5ith'hum ba3dain..
And she walked out.
That was the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to me. Shagool 7ag yusif? I couldn't look at him. 9a7 ana mali shi'3il feeha, bas still, she's family ya3ni.
Yusif: zaina? Tabeen amshi?
Me: no! plz stay?
Yusif: madri chinnich mithayga..
Me: no no plz don't go
He held my hand. This is the first time he holds my hand while am concious. My face turned red. I pulled away slowly.. I tried to change the subject 3ashan la afashil 3umri akthar..
Me: that was a good targee3a.. Min wain yibt'ha? ;p
Yusif: ay targee3a?
Me: the 6abeeb tajmeel thing
He lifted a brow.
Yusif: u think that was a lie?
Me: ha?
Yusif: hehe.. Ana 9ij a5i9a2i jira7a o tajmeel
Me: chathab
Yusif: hehehe!! Laish chathab!!
He started laughing uncontrollably. 7assait nafsi '3ala6..
Me: wuuut why are u laughing
Yusif: tha7akteeni.. "Chathab" hehe
Me: seriously yusif.. U're a dr?
Yusif: yep
Me: but u don't look like one
Yusif: laish, do dr's have a specific look?
Me: ee dr's can't look cool
Yusif: oooo ur calling me cool ha? ;)
Omg he's teasing. Ana habla ba3ad. I should think more before blurting out everything i think of!
Me: I mean.. U don't even wear glasses!
Yusif: even though hatha mala shi'3il ib being a dr, bas wela tiz3ileen, bachir I'll put on my glasses instead of my 3adasat
Me: oh!! So u do wear glasses!!
Yusif: ee
Me: hmm.. Yeah ok 3ayal, maybe I'll believe ur a dr
Yusif: hehe.. Ayeeblich shahadti 3ashan it9adgeen? ;p
Me: allaaah wanasa!! Ee abi ashoof :p
Yusif: hehe 5ala9 bachir inshallah ayeebha lich
Me: ok :D .... hmm.. and i need a nose job huh? :(
Yusif: haha.. no THAT part was a lie.. u've got the cutest nose ever.. won't let anyone touch it ;p Oo yalla inshallah intay ba3ad mo bageelich shay wityeebeen ishahada
Me: ay shahada wana msaddi7a hnee ;s lazim awagif dirasa til I can stand on my feet again at least..
Yusif: says who?
Me: says me! Shloun ra7 adawim?
Yusif: la t5afeen.. Mo lazim itdawmeen
Me: yusif? Laykoon msawi more stuff min waray?
Yusif: mo min warach.. Kani ga3id agoolich.. Ri7t kallamt ur counsler and dean bil jam3a.. They'll let u continue home-study the rest of the semester..
I was stunned. Doesn't this guy have any limits to wut he can do for me? Qanoon iljam3a wouldn't let anyone do this; u either attend ur classes or stop the semester all together.
Yusif: helloooo
Me: huh
Yusif: ga3id akalmich
Me: yusif laish itsawi chithe
I was on the verge of tears. 5nigatni il3abra oo 3yooni '3origat.. Ubbay how will I ever return his favors? No one on earth has ever cared for me this much.. ;/
Yusif: laish za3lana? I thought this would make u happy, that dirastich mara7 tit2a5ar..
Me: well yes, hell I am happy!! Bas laish chithe? Why are u doing this for me?! Yusif this is just too much!!
He was quiet, looking me in the eyes. For a moment I thought he might slap me; and I deserved it. But he just sighed, and leaned back in his chair. I was waiting for some kind of reply, anything at all. But he remained silent. I started to feel guilty. I can't even imagine wut kind of process he had to go through 3ashan yaqni3 our dean to treat me as a special case. Ifff ubbay why did I do this. Wiyya wayhi ana 7a99illi a7ad ysaweeli chithee 3ashan at7al6am? He was a miracle in my life. I closed my eyes. I made him upset. And I have to make it up to him. But how? Say sorry? That would just be '3ala6.
I opened my eyes. His head was down, looking at his hands fumbling with his misba7. My attention was shifted momentarily at how royal it looked. Bas killish mo wagta.. Wayha kan yaksir il5a6ir ;/ He looked both mad and sad at the same time. Like he wanted to express his anger but couldn't..
Me: yusif?
Yusif: hmm?
Me: za3lan 3alay?
Yusif: la2, why would I?
Me: u look sad..
Yusif: not sad.. Am just thinking
Me: am sorry yusif..
Yusif: wut about?
I thought it better not to mention it since he really isn't mad at me. I searched his face, for something that would show it. But all I could see was care. I loved his face: not beautiful with the shallow thought of beauty these days, but masculine and manly.. He smiled. And I couldn't help but smile back at this angelic face..
Me: nevermind..
Yusif: so.. Mita tabeen I bring ur books?
Me: mmm I think my friend ma3ali would be able to do that..
Yusif: even if ur books are in my car?
Me: huh? Shako shyabhum 3indik?
Yusif: at the accident.. 6arrasht nas to clean up ur car 3ashan ma tinbag ur stuff..
Omg.. I think kan fe ashya2 itfashil I had bought the day before!! As I was trying to remember
wut stupid items were with me in the car during the accident...
Yusif: don't worry, I didn't go through ur stuff..
Me: umm.. Yeah ok.. (Shit he noticed the bags!!)
Yusif: yalla I gotta go al7een.. Tabeen ayeeblich shay ma3ay bachir?
Me: no thank u.. Bas la tit2a5ar
Yusif: inshallah
Just as he got up to leave, we both heard the sound of heels that were in my room an hour ago walking AWAY, just now from behind the door...
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14.10.09
i7im !!
hello :$
mmm.. dear readers :P
sorry for keeping u waiting, bas wallah 7addi am sick :(
plus, tara 3indi dawaaam 7ali 7alkom :D
o yusif is going away :"( fa 7addi feeling bad o mali 5ilg shay :(
i promise i'll post it as soon as i get better!!
love u all ;*
sweet 'n sour ;*
mmm.. dear readers :P
sorry for keeping u waiting, bas wallah 7addi am sick :(
plus, tara 3indi dawaaam 7ali 7alkom :D
o yusif is going away :"( fa 7addi feeling bad o mali 5ilg shay :(
i promise i'll post it as soon as i get better!!
love u all ;*
sweet 'n sour ;*
7.10.09
Part Nine
He opened the door and was going out..
Me: Yusif!!!
He turned back to me..
Me: mita tyee marra thanya?
Yusif: don't worry.. I'll never leave u
He gave me the sweetest smile ever, and closed the door behind him... <3
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Wut happened was beyond my wildest dream. This was far better than wut I had hoped for. I would've jumped and skipped and ran in the streets; if I didn't have half my bones broken ;s
And then on the other hand, zaffat ma3ali...
Ma3ali: laa bas zaino badda3tay.. A5af il 7adith athar 3ala mu55ich?
Me: na3aaam?! Agoooool.. 9a7 ana al7een msaddi7a o magdar asaweelich shay, bas tara biyee youm bagoom, so beware ! ;p
Ma3ali: zayoon min 9ijji !!
Me: iffffff.. Ya3ni shtabeen asawi?
Ma3ali: wela shay ! Just.. don't be so obvious!!
I don't know.. Was I obvious? But he was obvious too :s o ana ma gilt shay '3ala6.. Ok this isn't me o I said more than I thought I would, bas ham 3adi ya3ni..
Ma3ali spent the day with me. Now that am awake, I realized how hard my life was going to be with all those casts.. I couldn't move in any way; my spine was broken at 2 places, my left hand, and right foot. I9adma i9ijiya kanat when I at last got a mirror to see myself. Turns out ma3ali was just trying to spare me the shock that my face was so horrible. Ubbay yusif saw me in THIS face? ;s It was full of ugly deep scars, not to mention the colorful bruises, purple and black; very stylish 9ara7a ;s
Me: ma3ali? Nature is calling
Ma3ali: mmm ok an6ir barra, call me when ur done..
Me: shloun agoom lay il 7ammam?
Ma3ali: u don't
Me: wut :
Ma3ali: just close ur eyes and do wut u got to
Me: no way !!
Ma3ali: I know its hard, but u'll get used to it.. Lana there's no way ur going anywhere wintay mjabbisa kil mukan
Me: ok..
Ma3ali: yalla I'll wait barra
and so it was :D
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Nite came and ma3ali had to go. I was already feeling tired and wanted to get some good sleep. She promised she'll come the next day. The nurses went in and out of my room throughout the day, checking my temprature and bruises, and giving me my medication.
I was just drifting into sleep when I heard the door open, AGAIN. Shakla mara7 y5alooni anam. I waited for a nudge in my hand for a needle or something, but all was quiet. I was too sleepy to open my eyes. And then I felt a warm, big hand on mine. Just holding it, stroking it slowly. It tickled. I closed my tiny hand over the giant one. It felt nice holding a bigger hand. Like a bond between a mother and a new born. I barely had the fingers in my whole hand. They were still. I drifted into deep sleep, not really aware that I was holding the hand that was going to hold my heart within it forever.. <3
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I woke in the morning to the sunlight coming through my window. It took me a few seconds to remember where I was, and why I was here. I really wished I could stretch. The sun was too bright on my eyes. I reached out for the nurse-calling button, but my hand fell on something else. It was the most beautiful, single red rose. I picked it up and held it to my nose. I took a sniff.. Aaah.. Looks like movies just exagurate.. Ma feeha ree7a!! :p but it looks so nice.. I noticed a small piece of paper next to where it was..
He's got his way with words, hasn't he? :$ I was wondering when he came here if it was still to early. Doesn't he have anything else to do other than trying to keep me safe and happy? I wish I could know more about him.. Yalla at least I know his name al7een; I was getting tired of thinking of him as the "black porsche guy".. Just as I was thinking the door opened.. HIYYA!! 3umra 6weeel :D
But I was wrong..
Baba: 9aba7 il5air!
Me: 9aba7 inoor yoba.. (I gave him a faint smile.. Disappointed)
Baba: shlounich ilyoum ? Inshallah a7san?
Me: il7imdilla yoba.. It just needs getting used to..
Baba: inshallah.. Intay bas shidday 7ailich o goomay bisalama
Me: inshallah
He looked around the room. Wee ubbay shagoola?
Baba: wow.. Ur friends are really into flowers huh?
Me: hehe ee.. They know inna I like them..
Baba: umhmm.. Did they visit?
Me: ee ma3ali yat.. Wil baji maybe lail7een ma diraw inni gimt.. They'll be visiting soon..
Baba: umhm.. Tabeen ayeeblich some books of urs or something?
Me: I don't think am in shape to hold up a book yoba ! 3adi la t7ateeni.. The nurses hnee garga and are making sure that they're keeping me entertained :p
Baba: 5ala9 3ayal yoba ana al7een amshi oo amir 3alaich lay gidart..
Me: ok baba take care..
Baba: u too 7abeebty.. Ma3a isalama
Me: ma3a isalama..
I pressed the nurse button.. A minute later the nurse came in..
Nurse: good morning ms.zainaaa
Me: good morning..
Nurse: how u feeling todaay?
Me: am good
She got to work, checking my temp, pressure and all that..
Nurse: do u feel any pain?
Me: no am ok
Nurse: mr.yusif is very nice
Ubbay shfeehum hathail wayid mistanseen 3alaih?
Me: mm.. How? (Trying not to sound too suspicious)
Nurse: he's very caring for u.. Very much
Me: becuz he's visiting a lot ya3ni?
She looked at me for a long time
Nurse: u don't know that mr.yusif is paying the nurses triple the salary to take special care of u?
Me: WUT!!!
It looked like she regretted that she had told me. Wtf was he thinking paying them zyada for special care? Min 9ijja?? Omg this is making me feel worse, why does he need to be so f****** nice?!?!
Nurse: sorry ms.zaina.. I thought u know..
Me: 5ala9 5ala9 its ok.. Wut time does he come everyday?
Nurse: he came early and left after he came in to see u..
So at last he was back to doing wutever he was supposed to do..
The nurse checked again if I was in pain and all and went to check on the rest of her patients..
Life was BORING. I flipped through the tv channels oo 7adda malaqa.. Mako shay yiswa il wa7id yshoofa!! O I was still in no shape to get out of bed, so I wasn't supposed to eat.. All I had was water and medics, I was supposed to be getting the nutrition my body needs through il drip that was stuck in my hand 6ool il wagt.. I hate needles :'(
I waited and waited.. Mabi adig 3ala ma3ali.. Fashla ya3ni kilshway dagga 3alaiha.. So I waited for yusif.. It was a few hours of drifting in and out of sleep that anything happened. The dr came and checked on me, informing me that am getting better, as if I didn't know that..
Dr.kamal: wi hatib2i zay il3asal ya 2amar
Inshallah ma t'3azilni ya3ni ^o)
Me: inshallah
And the door opened.. Saved by my alltime savior <3 !!!
Yusif: isalam 3alaikom
Dr: wa3alaykom isalam ahlan ya ustaz
Yusif, ashkara ignoring the dr: shlounich zaina?
Me (trying inni a5ish tha7kiti) : tamam..
Dr: i7im.. 6ayib ana asta2zin..And he left, and I let out my big smile..
Yusif smiled at me.. Wow.. Ubbay shloun aw9ifa? I was stunned.. He was in a dishdasha o '3itra..
His clothes didn't add anything to his look.. But his features added a million things to his clothes: perfection. He came to my side and sat down on the chair next to me.
Yusif: shlounich ilyoum?
Me: il7imdillah a7san
My face started to boil again.. Inshallah wayhi ma yiftha7ni wi9eer all blushy and stuff, he was too close!! ;$
And then I remembered illi galita il nurse..
Me: yusif ana za3lana minnik..
His face changed to the complete opposite. Before I said wut I did he looked light and cheerful; now he looked grim and sad, chinni giltla inna someone passed away..
Yusif: ana za33altich? Ib shino?
Me: I know that ur paying the staff so they'd take care of me..
Yusif: mino gallich?
Me: ma7ad.. I just know..
Yusif: aaah.. Okay?
Me: shino ok.. Shako tidfa3 lihum zyada? Its their job to take care of their patients!!
Yusif: ya3ni ma tadreen nitham our hospitals shloun 9ayir? If I hadn't done this chan ma ihtammaw feech as they are right now..
Me: yusif plzz.. Wut u already did for me is more than enuf.. I owe u my whole life til now..
Yusif: u owe me nothing.. And besides..
The door opened.. I guessed it was one of the stupid nurses yaya itchayik 3alay.. But i9adma was when I heard 9out the echo of high heels.. I froze in place (not that I could move much, but u get the point!!) And then she appeared in front of me.. The woman who had turned my life into a living hell: 5alti sara..
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Me: Yusif!!!
He turned back to me..
Me: mita tyee marra thanya?
Yusif: don't worry.. I'll never leave u
He gave me the sweetest smile ever, and closed the door behind him... <3
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Wut happened was beyond my wildest dream. This was far better than wut I had hoped for. I would've jumped and skipped and ran in the streets; if I didn't have half my bones broken ;s
And then on the other hand, zaffat ma3ali...
Ma3ali: laa bas zaino badda3tay.. A5af il 7adith athar 3ala mu55ich?
Me: na3aaam?! Agoooool.. 9a7 ana al7een msaddi7a o magdar asaweelich shay, bas tara biyee youm bagoom, so beware ! ;p
Ma3ali: zayoon min 9ijji !!
Me: iffffff.. Ya3ni shtabeen asawi?
Ma3ali: wela shay ! Just.. don't be so obvious!!
I don't know.. Was I obvious? But he was obvious too :s o ana ma gilt shay '3ala6.. Ok this isn't me o I said more than I thought I would, bas ham 3adi ya3ni..
Ma3ali spent the day with me. Now that am awake, I realized how hard my life was going to be with all those casts.. I couldn't move in any way; my spine was broken at 2 places, my left hand, and right foot. I9adma i9ijiya kanat when I at last got a mirror to see myself. Turns out ma3ali was just trying to spare me the shock that my face was so horrible. Ubbay yusif saw me in THIS face? ;s It was full of ugly deep scars, not to mention the colorful bruises, purple and black; very stylish 9ara7a ;s
Me: ma3ali? Nature is calling
Ma3ali: mmm ok an6ir barra, call me when ur done..
Me: shloun agoom lay il 7ammam?
Ma3ali: u don't
Me: wut :
Ma3ali: just close ur eyes and do wut u got to
Me: no way !!
Ma3ali: I know its hard, but u'll get used to it.. Lana there's no way ur going anywhere wintay mjabbisa kil mukan
Me: ok..
Ma3ali: yalla I'll wait barra
and so it was :D
;$
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Nite came and ma3ali had to go. I was already feeling tired and wanted to get some good sleep. She promised she'll come the next day. The nurses went in and out of my room throughout the day, checking my temprature and bruises, and giving me my medication.
I was just drifting into sleep when I heard the door open, AGAIN. Shakla mara7 y5alooni anam. I waited for a nudge in my hand for a needle or something, but all was quiet. I was too sleepy to open my eyes. And then I felt a warm, big hand on mine. Just holding it, stroking it slowly. It tickled. I closed my tiny hand over the giant one. It felt nice holding a bigger hand. Like a bond between a mother and a new born. I barely had the fingers in my whole hand. They were still. I drifted into deep sleep, not really aware that I was holding the hand that was going to hold my heart within it forever.. <3
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I woke in the morning to the sunlight coming through my window. It took me a few seconds to remember where I was, and why I was here. I really wished I could stretch. The sun was too bright on my eyes. I reached out for the nurse-calling button, but my hand fell on something else. It was the most beautiful, single red rose. I picked it up and held it to my nose. I took a sniff.. Aaah.. Looks like movies just exagurate.. Ma feeha ree7a!! :p but it looks so nice.. I noticed a small piece of paper next to where it was..
I was never happier than when I saw those stunning eyes open again.. Keep them shining for me..Yusif
He's got his way with words, hasn't he? :$ I was wondering when he came here if it was still to early. Doesn't he have anything else to do other than trying to keep me safe and happy? I wish I could know more about him.. Yalla at least I know his name al7een; I was getting tired of thinking of him as the "black porsche guy".. Just as I was thinking the door opened.. HIYYA!! 3umra 6weeel :D
But I was wrong..
Baba: 9aba7 il5air!
Me: 9aba7 inoor yoba.. (I gave him a faint smile.. Disappointed)
Baba: shlounich ilyoum ? Inshallah a7san?
Me: il7imdilla yoba.. It just needs getting used to..
Baba: inshallah.. Intay bas shidday 7ailich o goomay bisalama
Me: inshallah
He looked around the room. Wee ubbay shagoola?
Baba: wow.. Ur friends are really into flowers huh?
Me: hehe ee.. They know inna I like them..
Baba: umhmm.. Did they visit?
Me: ee ma3ali yat.. Wil baji maybe lail7een ma diraw inni gimt.. They'll be visiting soon..
Baba: umhm.. Tabeen ayeeblich some books of urs or something?
Me: I don't think am in shape to hold up a book yoba ! 3adi la t7ateeni.. The nurses hnee garga and are making sure that they're keeping me entertained :p
Baba: 5ala9 3ayal yoba ana al7een amshi oo amir 3alaich lay gidart..
Me: ok baba take care..
Baba: u too 7abeebty.. Ma3a isalama
Me: ma3a isalama..
I pressed the nurse button.. A minute later the nurse came in..
Nurse: good morning ms.zainaaa
Me: good morning..
Nurse: how u feeling todaay?
Me: am good
She got to work, checking my temp, pressure and all that..
Nurse: do u feel any pain?
Me: no am ok
Nurse: mr.yusif is very nice
Ubbay shfeehum hathail wayid mistanseen 3alaih?
Me: mm.. How? (Trying not to sound too suspicious)
Nurse: he's very caring for u.. Very much
Me: becuz he's visiting a lot ya3ni?
She looked at me for a long time
Nurse: u don't know that mr.yusif is paying the nurses triple the salary to take special care of u?
Me: WUT!!!
It looked like she regretted that she had told me. Wtf was he thinking paying them zyada for special care? Min 9ijja?? Omg this is making me feel worse, why does he need to be so f****** nice?!?!
Nurse: sorry ms.zaina.. I thought u know..
Me: 5ala9 5ala9 its ok.. Wut time does he come everyday?
Nurse: he came early and left after he came in to see u..
So at last he was back to doing wutever he was supposed to do..
The nurse checked again if I was in pain and all and went to check on the rest of her patients..
Life was BORING. I flipped through the tv channels oo 7adda malaqa.. Mako shay yiswa il wa7id yshoofa!! O I was still in no shape to get out of bed, so I wasn't supposed to eat.. All I had was water and medics, I was supposed to be getting the nutrition my body needs through il drip that was stuck in my hand 6ool il wagt.. I hate needles :'(
I waited and waited.. Mabi adig 3ala ma3ali.. Fashla ya3ni kilshway dagga 3alaiha.. So I waited for yusif.. It was a few hours of drifting in and out of sleep that anything happened. The dr came and checked on me, informing me that am getting better, as if I didn't know that..
Dr.kamal: wi hatib2i zay il3asal ya 2amar
Inshallah ma t'3azilni ya3ni ^o)
Me: inshallah
And the door opened.. Saved by my alltime savior <3 !!!
Yusif: isalam 3alaikom
Dr: wa3alaykom isalam ahlan ya ustaz
Yusif, ashkara ignoring the dr: shlounich zaina?
Me (trying inni a5ish tha7kiti) : tamam..
Dr: i7im.. 6ayib ana asta2zin..And he left, and I let out my big smile..
Yusif smiled at me.. Wow.. Ubbay shloun aw9ifa? I was stunned.. He was in a dishdasha o '3itra..
His clothes didn't add anything to his look.. But his features added a million things to his clothes: perfection. He came to my side and sat down on the chair next to me.
Yusif: shlounich ilyoum?
Me: il7imdillah a7san
My face started to boil again.. Inshallah wayhi ma yiftha7ni wi9eer all blushy and stuff, he was too close!! ;$
And then I remembered illi galita il nurse..
Me: yusif ana za3lana minnik..
His face changed to the complete opposite. Before I said wut I did he looked light and cheerful; now he looked grim and sad, chinni giltla inna someone passed away..
Yusif: ana za33altich? Ib shino?
Me: I know that ur paying the staff so they'd take care of me..
Yusif: mino gallich?
Me: ma7ad.. I just know..
Yusif: aaah.. Okay?
Me: shino ok.. Shako tidfa3 lihum zyada? Its their job to take care of their patients!!
Yusif: ya3ni ma tadreen nitham our hospitals shloun 9ayir? If I hadn't done this chan ma ihtammaw feech as they are right now..
Me: yusif plzz.. Wut u already did for me is more than enuf.. I owe u my whole life til now..
Yusif: u owe me nothing.. And besides..
The door opened.. I guessed it was one of the stupid nurses yaya itchayik 3alay.. But i9adma was when I heard 9out the echo of high heels.. I froze in place (not that I could move much, but u get the point!!) And then she appeared in front of me.. The woman who had turned my life into a living hell: 5alti sara..
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